Character: Madadh-alluidh

I met Jessi during my third year in college. The year I transferred to a new school. A new state. A new beginning. We met at a club full of different people. People who were searching for meaning in their lives and ways to express themselves. Many of the people in this group were scarred for various reasons. Jessi was full of love and light. Like a shining beacon in the darkness. I knew we would become friends. I knew she would understand.

I had been struck by Abiding Evils early in my life. Each time a little worse than the next. I had a darkness in me that I had no idea how to control. Or if I even wanted to control it. It felt so good to let the animal loose. To let myself go. To lose the human inside of me and let the animal have free reign.

Jessi was one of the few people that accepted both the animal and the human sides of me without question. She supported me during all my dark times. After my second year there we became roommates. Her and her now-husband but then boyfriend were part of my pack. I felt safe. I was always afraid that my darkness might be infectious I never dreamed of what would really come to pass.

I woke in the middle of the night to screams of agony. I recognized that sound. The air was still and pregnant with the Abiding Evils. I knew she had been claimed but not by my Wolf. By a far more sinister Wolf instead. We took her to the hospital, not knowing if there was anything they could do for her. Eventually her physical wounds began to heal. But I know as well as any other beast that the physical wounds are only the start. It is the emotional wounds—the wounds to the soul itself—that are the deepest and most difficult to heal. She had stayed by my side when few others would and so I would do for her. The Abiding Evils continue to strike out at her—trying to tear out her soul. But we won’t let that happen.

Together with our other allies we work to control our own dual-natures as well as to find and help others. Remember you are not alone. There are many others just like you and me. Every day I learn new ways to reconcile my two natures and prove that good CAN come from the animal within and that the Abiding Evils can be slain.

I am Madadh-alluidh a Night Huntress. You can call me Mad.